A brief Intro to me and my weight loss journey

Hi,

If you have stumbled across this and don't know who I am then I had better introduce myself !

I am very happily married with 2 teenagers... a daughter 16 and a son about to turn 14. I am also the proud mummy to 4, yes FOUR fur babies.... more about them another time!

I  am a Part Time Public Servant and am also passionate about Cake Decorating.

I have never blogged in a public forum before, quite frankly it scares me but it’s time for me to get real with myself and bare all.

 

I make no apology for anything I write, the language I use or the way the reader perceives my journey. After all, this is my journey and one I have chosen to share with you. I have spent far too long worrying about what others think of me. I am a people pleaser... should I say WAS a people pleaser. Well trying to change my ways lol

In January 2012 I celebrated my 40th Birthday. I had the best night. Over 100 family and friends joined me in a semi formal atmosphere.

I was originally going to have a fancy dress theme so that I could hide my body in a costume, but I decided it was unfair to my guests to pay to hire an outfit (my people pleasing ways!)

I was about to see some girlfriends that I hadn't seen since Primary School !

Well what does a severely morbidly obese middle aged woman wear that is semi formal? I should have thought it through better hahaha !

My only answer was to get something made. I already had a nice skirt... elastic waisted of course, so I only needed a top.
I found a lady in Brisbane who sewed for the larger lady, so off I went to Spotlight, picked up some sparkly and stretchy material and posted it to her.

One week later I had my sparkly tent top. It served me well on the night, it was comfy.

A couple of days later, my hubby, who is a professional photographer, emailed me 300+ photo's that he snapped on the night.

That was my BIG REALITY CHECK.

When I saw the photo's .... you know ... the ones that you are not prepared for, the ones where you can hide your body or tilt your head a certain way etc .... well .... I freaked.

I got on the scales and bam ... 154.4 kgs stared back at me.... I am only 154cms tall.

I decided then and there I would lose 40kgs in my 40th year .... no ifs or buts. My first major goal was to lose 20kgs for my daughters 16th birthday in June. I made it (plus 2 more kgs).... I was so proud

My daughter had a fairly big party with lots of food that I hadn't eaten for 6 months.... that was the start of my downfall. Just a bit of this and a bit of that etc Between June 7th and July 11th (5 weeks) I gained 4kgs.

So that's what brings me here.

Yep fell off the waggon with a big freaking bang !

It’s time for me to work out why I do this to myself and how I am going to prevent it from happening again.

I am an addict.

No doubt about that!

In my lifetime I have been able to kick two addictions that had hold of me.

The first, a gambling addiction which saw me lose a shitload of money …

The second, cigarettes. I was smoking 55+ a day …. Disgusting right?

Somehow, with strength mustered from goodness knows where, I was able to conquer both.

I haven’t gambled seriously in over 10 years…. A very occasional flutter on the pokies or a Melbourne Cup Sweep etc… neither of which stimulates me in anyway to delve further.

I gave up smoking on May29th, 2005. It’s been over 7 years since I have drawn nicotine into my lungs.

If you decide to stay with my blog, you will be subject to some horrify photo's as I get the courage to make them public.

 

My reinvented diet started again on July 11th 2012.

I wonder how many of you will actually be interested in my life in elastic pants.

Hold on tight ..... this is going to get bumpy !