Wow another week has flown past since I have updated my
blog!
Well let’s start with last Sunday’s weigh in on the 26Th
August.
Thankfully I actually lost weight!
I managed a 1.5 kg loss which
brought me down to 127.2 kgs.
I am really happy with that.
7% of my body weight GONE
1.5 kilogram loss for the week
The loss reignited a little bit of motivation in me.
I spent
most of Sunday at a local Trash & Treasure Stall with hubby selling
Daffodil Day Merchandise for the Cancer Council. I popped a couple of muesli
bars in my bag and the idea was to buy some fruit at the market. I was bored out of my
brains. Business was slow to say the least. I tried to distract myself by
watching a movie on my I Pad but the hot chips and donuts left aromas in the
air that were driving me crazy.
Around midday hubby went off to the loo and
came back with a bucket of chips and a Hamburger with the lot! I was far from
impressed but I kept a lid on my frustration. Once he was finished I was off to
find some fresh fruit. It proved a task. There was a couple of very small fruit
stands but they had mainly veges. I ended up buying some mandarins and bananas
and eating one of each. My will power won! I was really tired in the afternoon
from being up since 5am. I was totally unmotivated to get on my treadmill. I
decided that even if I burnt 150 calories it was better than nothing. I burnt
161 calories and was exhausted. So that was that!
Monday I decided that I was going to burn 600 calories no
matter what, I knew I had a couple of food engagements this week so I needed to
be on top of my game. Well it took me a couple of hours but I did it! I hurt
like hell but I felt amazing.
On Tuesday I went to a buffet lunch with a
girlfriend. I controlled myself, made good food choices and stayed away from
the dessert bar! I really had no idea how many calories I had consumed so at 5 o’clock
I jumped on my treadmill and stayed there until I burnt 600 calories… yep
another couple of hours but I knew that I had undone any damage that I “may”
have done. I wasn't taking any risks!
Wednesday… my legs are beyond sore so I made it my exercise
free day. I weighed in on Wednesday as I
just can’t help myself. Another small loss, down to 126.6kgs ECSTATIC!! This
means I have lost 10 kgs in 7 weeks.
I had dinner plans with another friend at
our local Mexican restaurant. I knew I would be ordering a fajita salad but I
also knew that my friend would order Nachos with sour cream, guacamole, salsa
etc as an entree for us to share. I decided early in the morning that I would
partake in the customary eating of the Nachos. I factored the indulgence into
my daily calorie allowance as best I could and went to dinner relatively guilt
free.
10 Kilograms gone in 7 weeks
When I woke up this morning (Thursday) I was dreading what
the scales might say but was prepared for a small gain. Thankfully the extra exercise paid off and I
stayed the same at 126.6kgs. At 7am I
put on my runners and out into my freezing garage, jumped on my treadmill and
smashed up another 600 calories. I wish it didn’t take me so long … a couple of
hours really are a lot out of your day. A small sacrifice I suppose.
This past week has brought many a triumphs… I have pushed
through pain and blisters to burn 600 calories 3 times this week. I have sat in
the car while my husband ate chips and a burger only to turn around and eat
fruit. I have controlled myself at a buffet. BUT the one thing that has meant
the most to me… this is the lightest my husband has ever known me. From here on in he gets a smaller wife each
week. I know he doesn’t look at me as a number… I understand that… and while this
may not be overly important to him, it means the world to me. Deep down in my
heart of hearts I feel sorry for him. I
know that when we are in public people stare. They must wonder what in the
world he is doing with me. I have seen
photos of his previous partners, none of them fat. I still ponder why he chose
me. I know I am a good person, a good mother and a good wife… I really do KNOW
that… but he could have had extraordinary yet he chose me… I feel indebted to
him… I don’t want to feel indebted any more… I just want to feel equal. Whoahhhh
I said it out loud! I think I just
dropped some baggage……
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